To The People I’ve Hurt And The Friendships I’ve Lost

I have come to the conclusion there are too many people willing to say good riddance to friendships failed. They tell the world how they didn’t need those people anyway. They say that they are better off without them. They make excuses for the pain they caused and walk away.

Today, I want to try something different. The friendships I’ve lost still hurt me. I’m sad to have lost their beautiful voices in my life. I’ve apologized before, but I still ache having lost something so important. I also know well it is likely there are people I have hurt that I was not even aware of hurting. This idea also pains me. So, today, I just want to stop making excuses and apologize.

To The People I’ve Hurt And The Friendships I’ve Lost:

Hey.

I know it’s been a long time since we’ve talked. And, I know we’ve gone our separate ways. You are happy, and I know you don’t need me to resurface in your life. I won’t assume you think about me, but I want you to know that I think about you. If you’re willing to listen, I just had some things I wanted to say. Some thoughts I needed you to hear. This is not a letter filled with excuses and simple “I’m sorry”s; it is a letter filled with deep sadness and remorse.

I cared deeply about our friendship. I invested in you because you were more than worthy of my time. You still are, and always will be. You are an amazing person, filled with incredible passions, talent, and insight. I’m sorry I never told you that enough. I’m sorry I made you feel less than what you deserved.

I never intended to hurt you. My words were often thoughtless. My considerations for you came far too often after my considerations of self. I am a flawed human being. I never wanted to admit that, so instead I just moved on. I deeply regret my mistakes. I’m so sorry I hurt you.

I will always treasure what we had. Being your friend meant so much to me. I know how blessed I was to know you and to be important in your life, for however brief a time. You are an extraordinary individual, who is undoubtably going to make a lasting impression on this world. I am glad I can tell people I knew you.

Thank you for sharing a part of yourself with me. I’m sorry I treated that part of you so poorly. You deserved far better than my careless considerations of your heart. I wish the very best for you in life. Please know that I will always think of you as a friend who taught me what friendship should look like. Forgive me for not knowing how to best hold onto that.

From the very bottom of my heart,

me

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Have you hurt people you deeply wish you could apologize to? Leave a comment below.

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2 thoughts on “To The People I’ve Hurt And The Friendships I’ve Lost

  1. I too have lost friendships/hurt others, mostly due to my carelessness and immaturity. I always put myself and my feelings first, without consideration of others’. As I grow older, wiser, and more mature, I realize what I have done and it makes me deeply sad and remorseful as well. I have reached out to some of them and have basically said what you stated in this article, not because I wanted to resurface and be in their lives again, but because I needed to tell them I was truly sorry. Sadly, we didn’t magically become friends again, but when I look back at those lost relationships, I have a sense of peace now. I know that even though we may not be able to repair the damages, we have at least come to forgive one another and have truly moved on.

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